ThE REal mE

Hey, so I have many family members that love and care for me... but some I think have gone off the deep end and I can classify as crazy with a capital Z!

I mean is it bad that people change? They change into something you haven't seen before? And what you fail to realize is that that change has made them a stronger, healthier person. Smothering a person from who they really are is how strange, weird and unhealthy people come about. I have a strong dislike towards people who try their damnedest to stop me from being me. I know my religion might be off, I know my style in music is a little weird, I know I like the most unimaginable people, Like Chris Crocker, But who I am today is formed by what has happened to me in the past and what happens to me in the present and future. So take me as I am or leave me be, Cause I am tired of forced changes.

PoeMs

My last breath is taken by you
I want to scream in pain
but I am too lost in the dark to speak
too lost to find a way out

When I hear your voice creep into my scariest dreams, I know that I will be okay.
When I see your face materialize when I meet my fears, I am given the strength that will help me over come all.
When I taste your kiss resting on my lips, I am able to tell the truth and know it will be given back to me.
When I feel your skin close to mine, I can shake off and burden that has rested on me.
You are my ever lasting breath, My heart and soul, With out you I am incomplete,My eyes fill with tears that fall out like a river when I see your loving face and I can't help myself, I love you with every fiber of my body, I wake with you in my head, and sleep with you in my dreams. Oh to know that you are there for me when I am sad, when I am mad,when I need someone to talk to. You have changed my life and will forever be in it.

I have lived my life the way everyone has wanted me to but as I got older I have seen that it is too difficult to live the way everyone wants me to now and I must do what I feel is right. The right path is hard to stay on but you must keep on it, steadily working your own way into the hearts of the others, some may like it and others may try to tell you it is wrong but it is the way that you like, it is your life not theirs. Love may kill you in many ways so don't believe that the first person you are with is the right one. They are only the hand and foot holds to the better person that waits for you at the top. Don't let love control you it is only a weight that can pull you.